Last weekend I did some pretty stupid things, totally unlike me, as my true 'drug abuse' phase I consider to be a thing of the past. I'm posting it here because I've been feeling adverse effects for a week afterward, and it doesn't appear to be improving. Anyway, here's what I put in my body...
12 PM - Modafinil, 50mg
9 PM - Aniracetam, 700mg
9:15 PM - Alcohol, 2 drinks
10:00 PM - Phenibut, 500mg
10:45 - Alcohol, 3 drinks
12 AM - Selegiline, 1mg
11:30-6 AM - Marijuana, repeated
11:30-6 AM - Cocaine, repeated, 1.25g - Note: I do not in any way shape or form condone the use of this substance. It is dirty and destructive... but I was drinking.
I ended up pulling an all nighter, and had to be on a plane the next day. Needless to say, add the all-nighter to the mix and I was pretty out of it for the next few days.
The problem is, ever since that night, I've experienced a massive amount of "airheadedness" and depression. I find it difficult to concentrate, or smile. I don't feel like myself. I look in the mirror, and I don't even see me. I see a wreck. I also feel like I've experienced some minor hair loss in the wake of that night, but I'm not sure if that's real or perceived. I feel like I aged a year. It's now been 6 days, and I feel maybe only a very slight bit of improvement.
I've also been incredibly tired and feel weak in the mornings. I can't summon energy. I can't go on my normal daily runs or workouts at the gym.
What can I do to improve my situation? I'm trying to eat healthy and avoiding all substance use, although today I did take half a tab of Modafinil in an effort to feel more "awake". I swear I'll never touch cocaine again. I also am not going to touch cannabis for a long, long time.