I have been exercising everyday, eating very healthy, routinely sleeping well, and interacting with school and new environments for the past 3 years, all the while off of medications. I have only been using supplements and vitamins, but they do not help very much, just slightly. The last few months have been when I decided to try medications again, so I have tried a few through my psychiatrists care, with not much luck and I must admit, I am scared to damage myself anymore from medications. I just do not know what to do or what is wrong with me, and I know my psychiatrist is just doing a guessing game and seeing what works.
Time -
Your neuroreceptor - neurotransmitter homeostasis has to get back to normal. You likely also need to fix an HPA axis (Hypothalamus-Pituitary-Adrenal) dysregulation.
It can literally take YEARS for the brain to recover from alcohol, benzodiazepines, or SSRIs -- the fact that you used/abused all 3 at the same time and threw MDMA into the mix -- well ... more recovery time needed.
IMHO your best bet is to find gentle herbal remedies to
1. regulate and heal your GABA system
2. regulate and heal your Serotonin system
3. Regulate and heal your Dopamine system