To add (can't edit my post), I also tend to get very sad soon after that tea. Maybe an hour after. There is no thoughts or other reasons why, I just feel great sadness that comes on within a few minutes. It doesn't happen with anything else, so it must be theanine. I'm also not sure how to interpret this exactly. At first at that point I notice feeling even less willingness to move, a couple minutes later I feel kinda weird, and then I just feel great sadness all of a sudden. No matter what I do, I can't cheer myself up, although since for a long time now I do not eat any sugar, I have not tried an insuling spike, which is a great mood booster for 10 minutes, haha. I still feel calm and focused though, but not inclined to do anything at all, just pure sadness. The amount of sadness increases with the amount of the tea I have. I actually forgot about this effect because I haven't had a high dose of the tea for a long time now, just small doses that I didn't steep for longer. It's an organic tea also, so can't be some weird additives or something, nor does it happen with any of the many non-organic teas I drink... Also, it comes and goes in waves, gets stronger and weaker, which is also interesting. Eventually I just become more and more tired, even if I cannot sleep. And if I start doing something, I get rather sleepy too, even though I can focus better. Now I remember why I didn't want to drink this tea often. The only thing that makes me wanna do something is the fact that I can focus some more and I kinda want to "use this time" while it lasts.
Could be too much epinephrine or more likely acetylcholine, but theanine doesn't seem to work on those, so I really have no idea what the cause is for this. I also don't have any headaches or anything like that. Perhaps I also get a little more sleepy, which definitely doesn't help with getting things done. So now I would like to dose caffeine again, much higher dose than before (and I already had a top up from this tea), but I would really just prefer to go and sleep because I feel too sad to feel like staying awake.
All in all, I would say that this tea (therefore probably theanine) is too calming for me for the energy levels that I prefer to have. I prefer being energetic, like I would be on lisdexamphetamines for example. Focused, concentrated, energetic, productive, motivated. In general I don't like being calm because I feel like it is not my "natural" flow of energy if that makes sense. I think that would say that I should not go with GABA-enhancing supplements or I should combine them with strong energizers? Or perhaps it comes from lack of other neurotransmitters or even something else? I really don't know to be honest. I mean even with caffeine before I wrote that I feel too "sedated" in a way, and my total L-theanine intake with this tea was at first probably around 40-80mg, then topped up with another 30-60mg (guessing here though). I have been awake for around 12-13 hours now, so I took it at the 10-11h range, and I slept for around 8h, I believe. Now I still feel wide awake and less sad as well as more able to concentrate, but the sadness is interfering with it severely, and I don't like the slowness in my moves. I can just sit and stare at the screen for 2 minutes with kind of empty mind (that's unusual because my thoughts are usually racing). I also tend to type a lot of useless information when I'm really really sad (I haven't felt this for a few weeks now actually - that time it was triggered by something, not caused by a substance), so I will stop editing this post, haha.
But I would really like to somehow interpret this experience, I think perhaps it will help to shift more towards specific supplements and exclude others, as currently I only have access to theanine, nicotine and caffeine, and as I wrote in my previous post, the money thing, I can't just order and test substances.
Edited by nooguyz, 11 March 2018 - 02:32 PM.