Hi everyone. I'm new to the forum. I'm a 40 yr old male who owns a small successful technology studio. Here is my situation in a nutshell...
For the past 12 years i have been on and off SSRI and SNRI medications for severe generalized anxiety with panic. A year ago I made the difficult decision to get off of the one I was on at the time (Lexapro). This has resulted in the challenge of my life. Even with a very slow taper I have experienced horrendous discontinuation syndrome. I feel that I'm beyond that but the aftermath has left me with a blunted mind and a wrecked digestive system (IBS-C with chronic gut pain).
I am a parent of a special needs boy and have a wife and other boy who I love dearly. Additionally I have a small business to run. I have been barely holding on and barely able to function. Recently a psychiatrist prescribed me a low dose of Baclofen, thinking this would ease my anxiety while targeting a different system (GABAB) than the SSRI's targeted. This stuff, while controlling my anxiety, only blunts my mind further.
I recently discovered nootropics and have done some reading over the past few weeks about them. I haven't tried them. I need something, anything, to get my brain functioning again but I can't risk flaring up my raging anxiety. Stimulants send my anxiety through the roof. I avoid all of them. I eat a healthy diet but I don't get enough calories because my gut issues have forced me to omit both gluten and dairy.
I have a very sensitive system and I don't want to ever take an antidepressant or benzodiazepene ever again if I can help it. I feel that they've poisoned me.
Thanks in advance for any suggestions!