I'm trying to figure out what my brother's problem is and hopefully I can try and help him. His original diagnosis was paranoid schizophrenia. He wasn't hearing any voices or erratic. Now, his new diagnosis is just "depression". He may be/he probably was. The guy is actually doing way better now, has jobs, just got hired for a U.S. government job. This is his problem: he likes buying all kinds of things as if he is addicted, bored, obsessed, etc (he buys the latest gadgets and updates as if he needs them, then after using them for a few days/weeks, he updates to the latest and he either donates what he just bought and got bored with or his place gets filled with these junk (hoarding? OCD?). Is he showing signs of mania? I think his past "schizo meds" may have made him in to such a person. He does not know how to save his money, inside his car is dirty, I believe his living conditions is as bad as his hygiene but he is "functional" as far as being a hard worker and also a spender. He blows his money! Is this some form of ADHD with the compulsiveness or impulsiveness and the lack of cognitive control?
The only thing what pops in my mind is the correlation between homeless people and TBI
http://www.scienceda...40425104714.htm
this might be related, dont know
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/24337470
Given the antipsychotics are able to do so or this is indeed Your brothers condition
Because everything seems related either by the Hippocampus *, Striatum or PFC to a layman, I would ask someone who has professional knowledge about, to diagnose it correctly.
* http://www.longecity...e-7#entry738128
Here are some links to reddit, You could try to ask indirectly, how the antipsychotics could cause (his) certain symptoms or ask about clinical reports of the antipsychotic or something
http://www.longecity...nt/#entry742155
I have experience with psilocybin. I have used 2 grams (dried). Understand when the mushrooms is still wet/fresh, it is mostly water. Drying it up evaporates the water.
What dose would achieve "ego death"? What is "ego death" exactly? I may have reached that level but perhaps I just do not know. I'm not the type that would want my ego stroke these days. I do not seek attention. I actually avoid it. I was the opposite prior to using shrooms. But I'm not truly convinced that I have achieved "ego death" as I still know how to dress and be in good hygiene. I would guess "ego death" might mean that you care less what people think therefore you become "careless/carefree". It can be good/it can be bad, depending on situation. From what someone had told me is that "ego" is the driving force of what we want to be, we want to be cool, we want to be admired, or something along those lines. But those are for ego-trippers.
Afaik, ego-death occurs while Youre on halucinogens.
My Mushroom (~2,5 grams, dry) experience was weird:
I´ve read that the best method to avoid horror trips is to let yourself fall.
So I did it and meditated in a dark room. It went very well, I had the motivation and concetration to meditate for hours because of the shrooms.
I had a closedeye halucination which looked like a fractal and after a while I reached even higher meditation states and stopped thinking at all.
There was no feeling of Yourself, or anything that gives You a feedback of Your existence, there was only the view of the fractal which prevented the absolute void.
I was like dead or my ego was dissolved respectively.
Edited by Flex, 06 September 2015 - 10:53 PM.